Trust in Him and enjoy the present.

I know it's Thursday, but I've been thinking a lot over the last couple of days about a couple of things and I just need to get them out.

Ever since I was little, I've always wanted to be a mom. There's never really been anything else I've really wanted to do. I've just always wanted to be a mom.

The other day, though, I was just thinking...all of my friends know what they're doing with their lives. I've got a ton of friends on missions, going on missions, or they know what they want to do with their life/major in–be a teacher, a journalist, or whatever.

But me??

All I've ever wanted to be is a mom, and seeing how that's not going to happen for awhile, I was kind of feeling discouraged and disappointed yesterday because I'm still not exactly sure what I want to major in yet–I've been thinking about a couple of options but none of them are really like, "Ding ding ding!!! This is it!!" and so that's just been hard. When I was growing up, I'd never really thought that there would be a time where I wouldn't be a wife/mom, and I'd need to be something else; it never crossed my mind (not sure why, especially in these last couple of years....my brain was just on a break, I guess). And so I've just been feeling kind of like I don't have a purpose...almost empty, in a way. I'm just kind of cruising along the path of life, not exactly sure where I'm headed or why.

And I've still been struggling a little bit with forgiving myself, and so that's also been a little hard. And so my brain has just been on overload mode, because of all these things on top of finals week...and of course I can't not think about these things because I'm me.

But then I saw this picture on Facebook yesterday, and it stood out to me because I really needed it.

I need to remember to trust Him, and trust His timing. And I also need to believe and trust in His grace. Things will happen when they happen, when they're supposed to happen, when I'm ready for them to happen. But not before. They'll happen when I need and am ready for them to happen. This year, I had some growing up to do, and I still have a little bit to do, but next year will be even better, and I'll be more prepared, and I'll be more aware. But right now? Right now I just need to trust in my Savior, and believe in His grace. Things will work out–they always do. I just need to be patient and enjoy the present. It's hard, but I know that I can do it. <3 <3